Last night, I had the privilege of feeding the missionaries in my ward. We did some Family History (that was my mission for two years, so I am a pro at it), we ate some Chili and just had a good time conversing.
At the end of the night, the missionaries shared a wonderful passage of scripture found in Romans, which hit home to me.
“Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:37-39)
My take-away from this scripture is that because I am gay, God still loves me. Because I may sin, God loves me. I can turn away from God, and you know what.. God will still love me.
Throughout my life, I have been a spiritually driven person. As a kid, I was invited to church with my neighbors (who were friends), and then they moved, and one of my High School classmates invited me to her church, and I became a member there. I was Methodist before I was Mormon.
I classify myself as “inactive” in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints”. Some of the teachings that I knew to be true, quite don’t resonate as much as they used to. When I came out, publically over Facebook, in June of 2014, my Bishop asked that I meet with him. Pretty much after that meeting with my Bishop, things went down-hill. I wasn’t attending church as much (of course I was working on Sundays so I would go on Tuesday nights to institute to make up for it). I felt that I needed to return to my Methodist family, or find a new church.
A few months back, I did go back to my Ward, and to be welcomed by my friends (fellow Ward Members) was incredibly amazing. I shook hands with the Bishops councilors, but not Bishop himself. If you could imagine I wanted to avoid the Bishop. I haven’t been back to church since, and I really don’t want to go back. Sure, I’ll go for institute but that’s pretty much it.
As I have been reflecting, I do have a spiritual life. I worship Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ my own way (since I’ll be back to work on Sundays again soon). I will go back to going to institute on Tuesday nights, to full fill my spiritual need.
As I stated earlier, I am gay, and I know God loves me. I know he loves all LGBT people no matter.